told my friend I have a blog
I finally told my friend I have a bearblog! I was inspired by one of my fave blogger's article and decided to announce the existence of this place to my beloved friend. If you're reading this: alligator and sheep have one thing in common, what is it? (Yeah, it's an inside joke). I write for the joy of it and here I allowed myself to share. It's nice to make a change (bravely show up out here as I am) and do something new. My blog was, at first, like a half improvised sketch, it didn't really have a form yet. What I used to write was just the result of me trying to adjust from paper to screen, from personal journal to blog that other souls may stumble upon. I shared this funny thought with my friend, all these months (while I was totally safe using the free plan, no visibility in the discovery feed), I was pregnant with my blog! I mean, I had no vision, I was testing the waters, the same way one does as they try on new shoes. But it's when you allow yourself to try things that everything starts to take place, even when you're uncertain about it, you can figure it out as you go. The blog went through a total restyling a few times and the things I write have evolved into something more clear and free I'd say. More authentic. I called it true self because I'm really expressing what I feel and think, all of myself, no filters. And my friend knows me without a filter but it was time to show it now because the blog feels...real, like it truly reflects who I am. Writing is like playing an instrument... as you learn to attune it, you're able to play it better, it progressively becomes harmonious.
Apart from that, I still enjoy writing anonymously. I can make mistakes and still shrug about it, I'm a human after all. And it's a personal blog. I have every right to write whatever I want. No more tiptoeing around or feeling like I have to ask for permission from God knows who, to express who I am, it feels good.